Monthly Archives: December 2011
December 25, 2012
What follows is so true for me personally. Fr. Rohr says what I know in my heart of hearts to be true. Just ponder this quote and decide for your self. I’m speechless and awed…Amen!!!
When people are truly following Jesus, they enjoy a great freedom from
themselves—they can laugh at themselves, and let others do the same.
They can accept humiliations and not being first or best—because their
own reputation is not at stake. They know it is all about the One
Eternal Christ Mystery and not about them.
The mature follower of Jesus will probably look more like a holy fool
than a pious churchgoer, an uptight schoolmarm, or a too-obvious
“saint.” At Jesus’ very birth he is fully identified with poverty,
homelessness, immigrants, shepherds who were unclean by Temple criteria,
and pagan astrologers from some offbeat Oriental religion! This Cosmic
Christ did not come to create or maintain any in-groups or superiority
systems, but to live and offer to the world a universal truth. Such a
Christmas is indeed worthy of being the central holiday and holy day of
the entire year.
~ Richard Rohr, Christmas 2011r.
December 17, 2011
I was reminded today that all our mental, emotional, physical and spiritual pain is used to reveal God’s Love to each other and to the world. Universal Love is waiting to break through our darkness. That’s what Advent is all about. We are waiting, waiting for that Love to manifest in a real way. Love is the Reign of God that Jesus talked about. The reign of God is at hand, it’s all around us, within us, between us but we can not see it. We can not see it because we get stuck in the darkness and sometimes loose hope that it’s even there. Many other religions talk about this. Most of us miss that message all together. We are not just waiting for a baby to be born…..we are waiting for the Kingdom of God to manifest on earth. That’s the hope we must hold on to and trust…that it is in fact happening even if it doesn’t look like it.
Pain (darkness) is truly a gift if we are willing to see it that way. It seems like that’s the only way we wake up to the truth of what is going on and are willing to take responsibility and work to change whatever it is that is causing our pain. We are called to do whatever we are able to do to relieve our individual pain and our earthly pain. We must do whatever we can do! Praying for guidance and courage to make the changes we are able to make and then trust that Universal Love will do for us what we are unable to do.
On a personal note, I’ve been suffering various degrees of pain from arthritis in my back. It causes pain not only in my neck and lower back but in my left buttock, down the left side of my thigh and sometimes in my left leg. The pain at times is so great I can hardly walk.
It’s been a long process and I’ve tried many things to help limit and hopefully eliminate the pain and so far I’m a lot better. I’m doing everything I’m led to do and trusting that God will do what I’m unable to do. I can truly praise God for all that’s happening. My experiences over the years has proven this to me. I celebrated 21 years cancer free, that was a difficult time in my life but when the arthritic pain was the greatest I became very depressed and had to fight for my life of peace and joy. And…..now it’s back. Peace and Joy are the results of being hopeful that healing is happening no matter what it looks like.
I’ve been looking at the pain in our world. The pain of suffering, starvation, homelessness, joblessness, injustice… just to name a few. Even our earth is groaning loudly for us to be more compassionate. Oh, I know it all seems overwhelming but I’ve come to realize that every baby step I take makes a difference. If we all take baby steps once again, listening for guidance and praying for the courage to do whatever we can do…..Love will meet us, work with us and together we will make a big difference. May this Holy Season bring you much Peace, Love, Joy and Hope….Especially Hope at this very dark time in our world.
Remember to feed your soul, so you will be aware of Love all around you.
December 10, 2011
Yes! I’m back on track. I can truly say that I’m grateful for all that happened yesterday. I’m also grateful for the signs that healing is in progress. My arthritic body is not as painful as it was before all came crashing down yesterday and I fell into that dark hole.
I didn’t really have to fake it yesterday and although I wasn’t jumping for joy, I was content and eventually I was able to participate in life in a positive way. My grumpiness left, I was calm and easy to get along with.
So how was I able to get to that place. Well the exercise helped a lot and along with regular doses of IBP the pain in my body has subsided. I wrote in my journal before I went to the gym and then I wrote my blog telling the truth as best I could without boring you with details, about how I was behaving badly. I also shared that reading about how a wise bipolar, manic depressive worked to get out of her dark hole, inspired me to try some of what she did and it worked. Last night I talked with my daughter and my sister I told them all the gory details of my terrible morning. I told the truth about the things I was anxious about. I shared how I was projecting some negative outcomes to my fears. Shared all my stuff. There’s something very powerful that happens when we tell the truth to people we trust. People who will just listen and not offer “advise” Oh that doesn’t mean that they don’t suggest things that can be done but, they listen, share and let it all go. I used to tell my clients that I had a responsibility to tell them what came up for me when they shared their stuff with me but that’s where my responsibility and expectations ended. That’s the way my sister and daughter listen to me. They make suggestions but that’s all they are….suggestions. It’s my responsibility to filter what they say through my being and decide what to do or not do.
I’m doing a communion service at the Main Jail today and should be working on a sermon but I’m strongly led to write here for now. In the process of reading scriptures that I’ll use for today I was reminded that we can be grateful even when stuff is happening that we don’t like. Somewhere deep in our souls the Holy Spirit is at work to heal us. Waiting for us to take our baby steps to recover. Remember we do what we can do so that God will do what we can not do. The pain in my body had been very intense for weeks. Yesterday was the first day I could say it was 95% better.
This is a dark time for our planet. Oh I’m not talking about all the horrible things that are going on in the world. What I’m looking at and putting my faith in is that all the trees and most flowering plants look dead. But I know better. If they were to spout at this time, the winter weather would not let them survive. Under the ground, in the soul of the earth the Holy Spirit is working there and will provide whatever is needed for our trees and plants to grow and thrive once the weather warms up a bit. In the spring there’s more sun and light sprinkles of rain. Most conditions are perfect for the new plants to thrive.
I think, that very thing is going on inside me and you and that the light we are waiting for is at work in everything. I know there are a lot of places that it does not ever look like anything positive is happening but my faith tells me it is! I just can not see the bigger picture.
Isaiah says: As the earth brings forth its plants, and a garden makes its growth spring up, so will the Lord God make justice and praise spring up before all the nations.
In the book of Romans, Paul says,”Our body and emotions may be in turmoil but our soul can wait in joyful hope because, in all circumstances, the indwelling Holy Spirit intercedes for us “with inexpressible groanings”
These scriptures speak volumes to my faithful heart. I pray they speak to you too with whatever you are dealing with during this Advent.
We are called to be the light in the world in whatever way we know how and sometimes it takes….exercise, faking it ’til we make it, telling the truth about our short comings and trusting that the Holy Spirit is working deep within our souls to heal us in more ways than we can imagine.
Thank you for listening and know that I pray for you and me every day.
Love & Light,
December 9, 2011
What was I thinking when I posted on Facebook truth be told. Why do I want to bear my soul again. Well I learned a long time ago to do what I’m led to do. After a very rough morning I was feeling numb about all that had happened and it was only 5:30 a.m. I was praying a litany of complaints and even told God I was not happy at all. I was for the first time ever feeling detached from my Higher Power. For me the pity pot will put you in that place faster than any other seat in life. So I said….”God I need a sign!” Please give me a sign.
Now before I asked for a sign and even before I was praying my litany of complaints I decided that I was too upset to meditate so instead I would do the readings for the day. I like to read the scriptures that are scheduled for the mass of the day and I have a book of daily readings for Advent.
I really thought that doing those readings would uplift my spirit and I’d be on my way to feeling peaceful and joyful again. Well the readings left me flat….flat on my pity pot again. My dark hole got darker and darker, I shed a few tears and then the next message I got was to write in my journal.
When I went to my journal and saw that I hadn’t written for six days I wasn’t surprised at all. You see not only have I not written in my blog, I even neglected writing all together. Boy that’s when I know I’m in big trouble.
So I started writing. Writing out all my complaints and asking God to help me….helped a teeny bit.
So I left my computer still a bit agitated. I fixed breakfast and then we went to the gym. I was rude and sassy with poor Bob. I hurt his feelings and at the time I didn’t even care. Then when the receptionist asked me how I was I said…..”I’m cranky,” and stomped off.
Well here comes the good news. I looked for a sign in my scripture reading and got none…..but sitting on the exercise bike I’m reading about a woman and her healing process of recovering from depression. Her’s is clinical depression, maybe bipolar disorder or manic depressive, her doctors used both terms. Earlier in the week her writings added to my flunk but today I decided to get to the good parts. I’d read enough about all the horrible stuff that happened to her. And that’s where I got my sign that helpped me get back on track.
She has twelve steps that she takes to stay sane and here are the ones that spoke directly to me. Here I am sitting on the exercise bike and she’s talking about how important it is to exercise to relieve depression. She went on to explain that cardiovascular workouts stimulate brain chemicals that foster growth of nerve cells. It increases the activity of serotonin and/or norepinephrine and a raised heart rate releases endorphins and a hormone known as ANP, which reduces pain, induces euphoria and helps control the brain’s response to stress and anxiety. Well at that point I pumped harder and harder. I started feeling better already.
Then she talked about the importance of prayer and meditation. She said we need to be patient and disciplined. Well that’s on my gratitude list. I faithfully pray and meditated almost every morning. But what uplifted me most was hearing all the ways she prays. She prays a mantra or she prays a rosary when she’s unable to do anything else. She reminded me that praying a rosary, holding each bead as you pray is sacred.
I’ve memorized the Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi and so did she. Then she said something that made me smile a lot because I do this also. She said, “I yell at God a lot too,” She went on to say, “I consider my loud ranting prayers sacred because getting mad and communicating my frustration means that I’m in a real, organic relationship with my Higher Power.” God does not care how we pray….God only cares that we pray.
And….this is the last one. “Fake it ’til you make it!” So off I go now consciously faking it ’til I make it. I’ll make a conscious effort to be happy and let you know how the rest of my day goes.
I have to remember…..to be truly holy we need to be fully human. Accepting our short comings and moving forward however we are led to do. Trusting that if we do our part…..God will do the rest. AMEN!!!
Remember to feed your soul!
Here’s another writing from Fr. Rohr. Please read it through before you react to the name of Jesus….He’s talking about the Universal Christ Consciousness. AMEN!!!
Richard’s Daily Meditations
The human spiritual longing expressed by “Come, Lord Jesus” is a
longing for universal order and meaning. In the centuries of fighting
over the humanity and the divinity of Christ, the Western Church has
gradually lost touch with the larger and more universal message: “The
image of the unseen God, the firstborn of all creation, for in him were
created all things in heaven and on earth . . . and he holds all things
in unity . . . because God wanted all perfection to be found in him and
all things to be reconciled through him and for him” (Colossians
This is not a problem-solving Christ, not a denominational or cultural
Christ, not a Christ domesticated by the Churches. This Christ names in
his life and person what matters, what lasts, and finally what is. He
holds it all together in significance, reveals the redemptive pattern
that we call the life and death of things, and holds the meaning and
value of our lives outside of ourselves!
Remember: Your life is not about you. You are about life!
Adapted from Radical Grace: Daily Meditations, pp. 387-388